I’ll be brief today. It was a very awesome hump day. I felt good. I was motivated and for the first time in weeks, months even I didn’t feel emotionally helpless. /
(Official Before pic )
I thought a lot about why I’ve gained so much weight. I need to understand it so that I am not defeating myself before I even make it to week 2. The top culprits:
- Panera (My office will have a new location soon. I can’t be trusted around delicious bread)
- I spent most of the summer depressed and untreated
- The menu gets crazy and a tad unhealthy when you have to figure out how to feed 3 people 3 meals a day and two of those people are growing children.
- Lakeshore Carryout aka devil corner store ( Enablers of my Pepsi, candy and chips addictions)
I’ve identified and I will take action.
I am the Queen of Snacks. I’m always on the lookout for the newest ones. I went to Wal-Mart today and I only bought food. I didn’t have to rush past the bakery with blinders on. I didn’t have to avoid the snack and candy aisles. I even got through check out with no impulse buys. Surprisingly I didn’t have the desire. It could mean I’m finally focused on making this happen for myself.
Calorie counting is dangerous for me. I get obsessive with it. I’ve had a few episodes that I’ll talk about later. Admittedly I have been counting. This time it’s different. I’m using the information to make better food choices. Why eat something that is 300 calories when there is a perfectly good substitution that is 110 calories? I also feel that if I need to eat 6 small meals a day (which I do for some other health issues) I’m not going to eat 500-600 calories in one setting when I can be perfectly satisfied with 300-400 or less.
For me losing weight is going to be very “One day at time.” I know this and I accept it. I still need to set goals. I have my target weight set. I also found something I want to work towards. I don’t have jeans I want to get into, I wedding to be ravishing for, nor do I want to be skinny because some jackass dictated that skinny was sexy, so I found an activity. I’m excited. I want to spill the tea but I’m scared I’ll jinx it. I will make a vision board and drop hints. Until then watch me work. ☺
Well that’s just about all for today. I’m tired. Not the bad tired the good I feel accomplished and ready for tomorrow tired.
P.S. I walked another 2 miles today. I felt like I was going to die but I made it. This guy was on the tow path. He let me get super close before I got scared.